Some day in the unforeseeable future, Black Wolf, you will possibly recall the wisdom that Old Goat offered you when he said, "I'm 88, almost 89. My body is falling apart, but in my heart I'm still 17."
It's true...unless you are looking in a mirror, in your mind you will forever be the "you" that you are in your late teens. Sometimes you will catch your reflection by surprise and be startled, perhaps thinking you are seeing your father in the mirror.
Life is funny, and strange.